The thirty year old will text everyday— even if he has to be the one who sends the first text. And he responds immediately. There are no games.
He actually remembers when you are going through emotional turmoil, asks how you are, and reassures you.
He tells you that you’re special, and that you’re the best.
He plans trips: 2 hour drive to St. Augustine solely to watch the sun rise, 2 hour drive to Tampa to visit the zoo… an overnight trip to Disney World together. And he allows you to fall asleep with your hand in his lap and head on his shoulder while he drives.
He pays for things. Gas on our trips, entrance tickets, hotel rooms, etc. but also respects you enough to allow you to pay when you fight for the bill over dinner (which could either be at your typical Chili’s or the fanciest restaurant)
He spends every night that he can, in your bed despite the 45minute drive from his own home. Waits for you on the nights that you get off work at 4 or 5 in the morning. And doesn’t even try to hit first base. In fact, he pushes away when you hit his weak spot (the one that took you many nights to discover)
He will be awake for 2 full hours before you the next morning and stay laying beside you the whole time. And when you ask why he didn’t wake you up, his response goes something like: “I was cuddling.”
He hides nothing from his kid, spoils him, allows you to spoil him despite his disapproving looks, and disciplines when necessary. Spending time with the both of them is not weird. If anything, you feel strange because of how much of a family the three of you seem to be when out in public.
He (basically) allows you to physically harass him. Yes, he takes the kicks, punches, bites, wet willies, and fingers up his nose without any annoyance.
His eyes are on YOU. His hands want to touch YOU. And if more than a few minutes go by without some sort of physical contact, he will tuck your hair behind your ear, tug on your belt loops, deliver a poke to the rib cage or a surprise bite on the neck (a habit he’s picked up that I can only blame on myself).
Physically, he’s nothing close to your type and he is more than 10 years your senior. Certain things will always be put before you; like his son. And he smokes enough cigarettes to piss you off multiple times a day. Despite all that, personality seems to outshine all physical traits, as it should.
So how is it that you can see when you have something different than what you’ve ever been used to, someone who treats you correctly and yet, you continue to push away despite all of the awareness in the world?